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So I needed a haircut…

and this is what came of it.

The state of affairs

There’s much more than what meets the eye happening.  You don’t call for nothing.  And maybe it will just be a continuation of what you started the other night.  Even though I’m dissapointed you didn’t hold up your commitment and finish what you started, I’m sure it can be made up to me.  Two fold.  Hoo-hah Two Times Tuesday.

Gravel Switch is such a drain on me.  It really does kill everything in my heart and soul.  I can’t face anyone and look them in the eye any more because I just feel like I hate them.  For no reason other than they remind me of the past, the general backwards atmosphere in which I grew up, just the blassiez attitude and direction of the community.

My hero, my motivation, my mentor is finally giving up the desk in 219 Marion County High School.  I talked to him at length this week.  He’s in his usual upbeat spirit, even more glad that he finally doesn’t have to keep on with doing the school thing.  He knew it was his time, especially when his job role would have changed drastically for next year.  And I can’t blame him one bit for standing up and saying that he wasn’t going to put up with it, that he’s going home, and so long and thanks for all the fish.  I can only hope that when I put in over thirty years at one place that I can do the same thing, go out with the same swan song, and leave, knowing that I’ve changed what I was sent into and made it better before I walked out.

I showed off my program today (well damnit all to hell, I should have been blogging progress on that as well… oh well).  Dad loves it.  I figured he would.  The company that they are dealers for already have something similar.  But, it’s overpriced, and it’s not exactly what dad wants.  So I’m just going to market mine.  Screw the franchise deal.  Maybe they’ll pick it up sometime.

I’m ready to be gone from Gravel Switch and sleeping in C8.  That air matress would be hella comfortable right now.

You want to know what 3 words will throw your mind more than anything?

From a girl I’m attracted to:

“I miss sex”

There’s no real way to respond to that.  I mean, you can always go (like I did) with the “yeah, me too” route.  But it’s hard to not say “well then, why not do something about it”.  I’m much more of a gentleman than that.  Evne if she told me to come over, I’d be hard pressed to do anything more than cuddle with her.  Not for any real reason but respect for her.  This is one of those situations where I could get some ass if I was an asshole.  But I can’t be an asshole, so I guess I get no ass.  All for the better this way anyway.

Soy un perdedor

So, I was walking along today, and realizing that this semester is over. And I can’t say that I lived it to it’s fullest. But I can say that it’s time to get it over with. Now. I’ve got alot of shit to do. A LOT.

And as I sit, my fingers aching from coding this morning, with the prospect of much more in the horizon for the next day and a half, I realize how little I actually did this semester.  There were three classes that I basically never went to, and two that for attendance purposes I had to.  So that was 5 classes, all totalled for 17 hours.   And I doubt that I put that much effort in to all of my classes, between going to them and doing the work for them.  That is, until the past two weeks have come up.  And then it all hit me.  At once.  Now the classes I had left doing nothing, I suddenly had to work in them.  Alot.  That’s what I’ve been doing.